If you’ve been following the blog for some time you may have come across my Love Yourself Completely post. I’ve posted it twice here and both times I was met with such love and encouragement from Queens (here and on my social media accounts) about the message. In that post I talk about loving yourself completely and embracing everything about you. Total self acceptance. “Flaws” and all. I also talked about the things I experienced in my past that I learned to embrace and accept about myself. That transparency with you all was major for me. I’ve never really spoke out on something so personal. Writing about beauty is easy. It comes naturally to me and it’s something I’m passionate about. But what’s not so easy is being transparent and I was really happy to see such positive feedback.
Summer is here and while I look forward to long days, beach trips, and relaxing vacations…it’s also been one of the more difficult seasons for me when it comes to self confidence. Why? Well, if you “know” me you know that I’m a petite girl. 5’4 and barely 120 lbs on a good day lol. I’m small and in the past, it used to bother me sooo bad. I swear people don’t realize how offensive comments regarding another persons weight, whether big or small, is. But lucky for me as the years passed and I got older, I grew to love, embrace, and downright flaunt my petite frame. Yup I’m small and yes I pushed out two babies *Kenya twirls*. But the reality, honestly, is that YES I am small and I pushed out not one, but two babies over 8 lbs. Do you have any idea what that does to a petite girl like me?!?
It may not be a big deal to you, but to ME. It’s major. I NEVER show my stomach. Like ever. The Mr. is forever irritated by my lack of confidence when it comes to this. Thinks I’m crazy. And you know…maybe I am. But the honest truth of it all is that it’s an obstacle for me. Just like the countless obstacles us women feel daily. The struggle of wanting to change something about ourselves to be more this or less that. The struggle between what WE see in the mirror versus what the world sees. I’ve learned that the best way to overcome such obstacles is to face them head on and embrace them for what they are.
I’m a believer in what you think, is what will be. If you believe you are fierce. You Are. So facing this one head on and embracing ME. I won’t necessarily walk the mall crop top and all, but gone are the days where I feel insecure, upset, or sad about my body. If this is the result of bringing forth life, it’s a small price to pay. So while, I will surely pair this cute shirt with a high waist maxi, I will stop, flick and give myself two snaps for being me. I mean…I earned it damn it! Them boys didn’t push themselves out ;).
Stay blessed beautiful!