Reflections | Random Thoughts…

It’s hard for me to take in this life thing sometime.
For me.

It’s like, I want to do everything.
All of it.
But there’s no time…or is there?

Sometimes I get suffocated by the beauty of life.
And all that you can do.

And other times I’m highly disappointed that I’m not THERE yet.

I’m thankful though.

Most of the time I over think life.
It’s a gift and a curse.

But I really just want to live…on my terms…and be happy.
Is that my dream?

Then there’s just not enough hours in the day.
Ya know, to make my dreams a reality.
I can barely make my family dinner after work.

Work. Whose idea was this?

You make time “they say”. Well…that sounds easy.
Sarcasm font.

“Hold fast to dreams”…
I will.

It WILL happen one day.
That’s faith.

I believe in faith.
In hope. In love. In life.

How could I not?

Have you seen my babies…they are miracles.
REAL. LIFE. MIRACLES.

Peace, Love, & Blessings

~

Siggy

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Reflections | This is 26

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Happy Birthday to me! Yesterday was THIS Brown queens birthday. Yesterday I turned…26…

I actually had a lot of mixed feelings leading up to this day. I had started and stopped this post at least five times and finally gave up deciding that I couldn’t actually write a post about being 26 until I WAS 26. Call it cliche or corny or whatever but I’m real funny about things like that *shrugs*. Anyway now that the anxiety has waned, the day is here, and I have finally said goodbye to 25…I can properly introduce you to 26.

26 is a weird age. It is. You’re past the early to mid twenty stage. It’s gone. Everything from this point on is considered late twenties. Omg…late twenties. That’s crazy. So yea you’re officially in your late twenties. Any major decisions you make from here on out could go either way. Most won’t affect your life like forever. You still have plenty of room to grow, learn, make mistakes, fall and get up. However it’s now clear that you have to start thinking about the future. If you are like any normal 26 year old, you’re probably not where you thought you’d be in life. And if you scroll your Facebook news feed apparently everyone else is doing everything your not. Don’t believe that hype though. It lies I promise. Looking back if you asked me what would I be doing at 26, I’d tell you married with kids, homeowner, awesome career, working on my Masters degree. Living the life. Well…at 26 I don’t exactly have that and that’s okay. Today isn’t a day to complain on what I don’t have. Rather a time to rejoice over what I do. This is 26.

26 is finding true love. My soul mate. Marriage is everything I imagined and everything I didn’t at the same damn time. 26 is sacrificing those expensive pair of shoes for 3 pairs of kids sneakers instead. 26 is finally getting a date night with the husband and having that moment midway through the date where we say simultaneously “I miss Manman”. 26 is taking that mentality of not caring what other think and actually legitimately, not caring. 26 is coming into my own person. Really figuring out what it is to be me. 26 is admitting that I’m not just too tired to go to the club but that *gasp* I don’t want to go to the club. Turning up now means wine and movie after the kids go to bed. 26 is having a quarter life crisis at least every other day where I have to analyze and re-analyze my life so far. What do I do? What am I doing? What do I want to do? are questions I ask myself as frequently as I ask what do I want to eat. 26 is finally admitting that although I am still very petite…that baby weight is a bit more stubborn this time around in certain areas and a gym membership or at least a simple work out routine may be in order. 26 is one hundred percent legitimately concerned about other people’s well being before my own. Motherhood. 26 is LIFE.

Of course this whole life thing is totally subjective. My 26 isn’t your 26. And that’s perfectly okay. Regardless we’re here. In this moment. Today. This is 26. Love it. Embrace it. I’ll never be this age again!

Peace. Love. Blessings.

~
Tyshia Shante
Founder & Editor of This Brown Queen

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Why I Blog

I started this blog three months ago. I can’t remember the exact moment that I decided: You know what? I’ma be a blogger. But it happened. And This Brown Queen was born. Let me get real personal with ya’ll. I was on a mission. But I had no clue what that mission was. I was lost. Overwhelmed. Searching. Unfulfilled. Something…Was…Missing. Don’t get me wrong, I am abundantly blessed. I have a loving husband, beautiful healthy children, family, and I make an decent (enough) living to support myself. But…I wanted more. I guess you could say I was having my quarter life crisis. I was yearning for everything and nothing. There had to be more to this life. There had to be…

I’m the type of person who wants it all. Literally. I want to be wife and mother of the year, employee and student of the month, entrepreneur and business woman of the week, all of it. So I’ve been on this 26 year long journey to find out how and what it is that I will accomplish in this life. I am CERTAIN that I’m just one of those people who will just dabble in everything. You know the kind of person I’m talking about. The one you meet who has like fostered 20 kids (I like kids *shrugs*), wrote a book (I really want to do this), practiced yoga for a year in Thailand (because that’s just cool), changed lives in Africa (because I want to give back), worked at a bank (you know for good measure), owned a dance company (that’s a real goal), mentored young battered women (an issue close to my heart), an amateur model (I still do this), your resident beauty consultant (I love me some make up) and a plethra of other seemingly random and unrelated things in life. That’s just me. But writing…writing is my love. And This Brown Queen is where I can write. About all of those seemingly random and unrelated things that make up THIS brown queen.

It’s an outlet. It’s therapeutic. It’s work. It’s hard. I love it. I’m passionate about it. It’s mines. That’s why I blog.

I hope you guys are enjoying this. It’s so beautiful to see all the support I’ve gotten in just 3 short months. I can only imagine where we can go from here! Can’t wait to take you all with me!

Peace, Love, & Blessings

~

Tyshia Shante
Founder and Editor of This Brown Queen

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