Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. ~ Hebrews 11:1
Recently, I’ve been going through a period in life where things are REALLY uncertain. Now, I know if I’m being true to myself…EVERYTHING in life is uncertain. Nothing is guaranteed. But there is a certain unsettling feeling of uncertainty that comes over you when things shift in your life. Especially when they shift unexpectedly, dramatically, and abruptly. With things happening in my life like career changes for my husband, the new business I am trying to start for myself, and finding my way in the blogging world…I’ve been experiencing an unsettling feeling. A shakey feeling. A feeling of instability. And I don’t like it.
I look at my business plans and think, can I really be successful? I look at my husband and I have no idea where his career will turn from here. I blog, I love it, but I don’t really know what I’m doing!
Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” ~ Matthew 14:31
Those feelings that I have are doubt. Doubting whether I have what it takes to be a successful entrepreneur. Doubting whether I’m doing the “right thing” when it comes to blogging. Doubting whether the direction my husband decides to take in his career will make him happy. It’s all DOUBT. And doubt is poisonous. Because once those doubtful thoughts enter your mind, it’s hard to shake them!
We live by faith, not by sight. ~ 2 Corinthians 5:7
My husband is a faithful man. When troubling times come and I feel like the walls are crumbling in, he’s as calm as if everything we’re experiencing is perfectly normal. Like everything is happening just as it should. Living by the phrase “God has me”. I thank God for him everyday. He helps me to break out of that doubtful thinking. A glass half full kinda guy. The end of one thing is just the beginning of an even greater next thing! God has me. In my career, my family, my life. HE has me.
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. ~ Proverbs 3:5
I’ve been trying to change my thinking. Instead of IF, I’m saying WHEN. Because I KNOW there is something greater ahead for me. Us. Faith is not just saying those things. It’s a truly, 100%, undeniable, unwavering, belief that I WILL MAKE IT. Period.
And He said to them, “Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you shall say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it shall move; and nothing shall be impossible to you. ~ Matthew 17.:20
So WHEN I look back on this. You know, WHEN I made it. I’ll simply say…
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. ~ 2 Timothy 4:7
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