Reflections | Random Thoughts…

It’s hard for me to take in this life thing sometime.
For me.

It’s like, I want to do everything.
All of it.
But there’s no time…or is there?

Sometimes I get suffocated by the beauty of life.
And all that you can do.

And other times I’m highly disappointed that I’m not THERE yet.

I’m thankful though.

Most of the time I over think life.
It’s a gift and a curse.

But I really just want to live…on my terms…and be happy.
Is that my dream?

Then there’s just not enough hours in the day.
Ya know, to make my dreams a reality.
I can barely make my family dinner after work.

Work. Whose idea was this?

You make time “they say”. Well…that sounds easy.
Sarcasm font.

“Hold fast to dreams”…
I will.

It WILL happen one day.
That’s faith.

I believe in faith.
In hope. In love. In life.

How could I not?

Have you seen my babies…they are miracles.
REAL. LIFE. MIRACLES.

Peace, Love, & Blessings

~

Siggy

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Reflections | This is 26

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Happy Birthday to me! Yesterday was THIS Brown queens birthday. Yesterday I turned…26…

I actually had a lot of mixed feelings leading up to this day. I had started and stopped this post at least five times and finally gave up deciding that I couldn’t actually write a post about being 26 until I WAS 26. Call it cliche or corny or whatever but I’m real funny about things like that *shrugs*. Anyway now that the anxiety has waned, the day is here, and I have finally said goodbye to 25…I can properly introduce you to 26.

26 is a weird age. It is. You’re past the early to mid twenty stage. It’s gone. Everything from this point on is considered late twenties. Omg…late twenties. That’s crazy. So yea you’re officially in your late twenties. Any major decisions you make from here on out could go either way. Most won’t affect your life like forever. You still have plenty of room to grow, learn, make mistakes, fall and get up. However it’s now clear that you have to start thinking about the future. If you are like any normal 26 year old, you’re probably not where you thought you’d be in life. And if you scroll your Facebook news feed apparently everyone else is doing everything your not. Don’t believe that hype though. It lies I promise. Looking back if you asked me what would I be doing at 26, I’d tell you married with kids, homeowner, awesome career, working on my Masters degree. Living the life. Well…at 26 I don’t exactly have that and that’s okay. Today isn’t a day to complain on what I don’t have. Rather a time to rejoice over what I do. This is 26.

26 is finding true love. My soul mate. Marriage is everything I imagined and everything I didn’t at the same damn time. 26 is sacrificing those expensive pair of shoes for 3 pairs of kids sneakers instead. 26 is finally getting a date night with the husband and having that moment midway through the date where we say simultaneously “I miss Manman”. 26 is taking that mentality of not caring what other think and actually legitimately, not caring. 26 is coming into my own person. Really figuring out what it is to be me. 26 is admitting that I’m not just too tired to go to the club but that *gasp* I don’t want to go to the club. Turning up now means wine and movie after the kids go to bed. 26 is having a quarter life crisis at least every other day where I have to analyze and re-analyze my life so far. What do I do? What am I doing? What do I want to do? are questions I ask myself as frequently as I ask what do I want to eat. 26 is finally admitting that although I am still very petite…that baby weight is a bit more stubborn this time around in certain areas and a gym membership or at least a simple work out routine may be in order. 26 is one hundred percent legitimately concerned about other people’s well being before my own. Motherhood. 26 is LIFE.

Of course this whole life thing is totally subjective. My 26 isn’t your 26. And that’s perfectly okay. Regardless we’re here. In this moment. Today. This is 26. Love it. Embrace it. I’ll never be this age again!

Peace. Love. Blessings.

~
Tyshia Shante
Founder & Editor of This Brown Queen

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*Dress: Forever21|Shoes: BCF

Why I Blog

I started this blog three months ago. I can’t remember the exact moment that I decided: You know what? I’ma be a blogger. But it happened. And This Brown Queen was born. Let me get real personal with ya’ll. I was on a mission. But I had no clue what that mission was. I was lost. Overwhelmed. Searching. Unfulfilled. Something…Was…Missing. Don’t get me wrong, I am abundantly blessed. I have a loving husband, beautiful healthy children, family, and I make an decent (enough) living to support myself. But…I wanted more. I guess you could say I was having my quarter life crisis. I was yearning for everything and nothing. There had to be more to this life. There had to be…

I’m the type of person who wants it all. Literally. I want to be wife and mother of the year, employee and student of the month, entrepreneur and business woman of the week, all of it. So I’ve been on this 26 year long journey to find out how and what it is that I will accomplish in this life. I am CERTAIN that I’m just one of those people who will just dabble in everything. You know the kind of person I’m talking about. The one you meet who has like fostered 20 kids (I like kids *shrugs*), wrote a book (I really want to do this), practiced yoga for a year in Thailand (because that’s just cool), changed lives in Africa (because I want to give back), worked at a bank (you know for good measure), owned a dance company (that’s a real goal), mentored young battered women (an issue close to my heart), an amateur model (I still do this), your resident beauty consultant (I love me some make up) and a plethra of other seemingly random and unrelated things in life. That’s just me. But writing…writing is my love. And This Brown Queen is where I can write. About all of those seemingly random and unrelated things that make up THIS brown queen.

It’s an outlet. It’s therapeutic. It’s work. It’s hard. I love it. I’m passionate about it. It’s mines. That’s why I blog.

I hope you guys are enjoying this. It’s so beautiful to see all the support I’ve gotten in just 3 short months. I can only imagine where we can go from here! Can’t wait to take you all with me!

Peace, Love, & Blessings

~

Tyshia Shante
Founder and Editor of This Brown Queen

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To Whom Much Is Given…

“…from him much will be required; and to whom much has been committed, of him they will ask the more.” ~ Luke 12:48

I don’t really know why I chose this scripture for this post. It just kind of resonated with me. Like many Queens, THIS brown queen does it all. And no, I’m not boasting or bragging. Don’t you know that I would LOVE an assistant, a mother’s helper, a clone, ANYTHING to help me with my day to day tasks?! I’m sure we all do! But, I don’t have those things. It’s just me (and the Mr.) So I gotta do it all. There’s motherhood and marriage. Then there’s my 9 – 5 and entrepreneur aspirations. That alone is enough to fill 24 hours in a instant. Seriously. When 8 hours is supposed to be devoted to sleeping and 8 hours is spent bringing home the bacon, you’re only left with 8 hours to live! Really?? Whose idea was that? So in 8 hours I must raise my children, maintain my home, nurture my marriage, and grind to achieve my dream of being an entrepreneur.

So what happens? I’m sure ya’ll know the answer to this! Things get crazy. I mean real crazy. And 8 hours of sleep? What is that? Somebody let King Jr. know about this because clearly he doesn’t care. Like at all, about no 8 hours of sleep ;). Life becomes a constant flow of this and that. Days pass by faster than they feel. And nights feel nonexistent. It’s easy to get caught up in it all and feel overwhelmed. I know ALL about that. I can write a book about it. No literally I could.

Mostly, I try to maintain balance. Multitasking is my middle name, but I still leave certain things for certain times as it should be. This is key to my sanity. When it’s family time. It’s family time. When it’s time to work I’m in my zone. And I strive to do my best at my job just as I would in any other aspect of my life. Certainly most times you can find me iPhone in hand, baby on hip, two kids in tow. And I’d have it no other way. But BALANCE is key. When the time calls to put down the iPhone and eat dinner (which we do every night as a family!) than that is what must be done.

My point to this entire post which may seem like random ramblings is to say…I was blessed with my husband and my children. With my job and my talents. With my dreams and my goals. So if that means I have work a little harder in life than the next person so be it. I was given these blessings so it’s only right I’m expected to make the very most of this life!

Peace, Love, & Blessings.

~

This Brown Queen

Lyrics for Ya Soul

Sometimes blindness finds me and leads me through ignorance
Not allowing us to gain experience, so we become lifeless
And other times, I couple with self pity or walk aimlessly through reality
So occasionally, I choose to travel alone
But never fulfill my possibilities so mostly I attempt to achieve balance
By, seeking right knowledge and loving and reviewing and eventually overstanding those many lessons of my life.
~ Floetry “If I Was a Bird”

Lyrics for ya soul Queens! Happy Friday!

Peace, Love, & Blessings.

~

This Brown Queen

My Life in 32 Days: The First 10

So actually it’s been 13 days into My Life In 32 Days, but whose counting? It has been interesting but refreshing! The first 10 days of this journey I made some simple but lifechanging decisions.

1.) I decided that I was done with the creamy crack aka relaxers and transitioning to natural hair. Check out my “Hair” posts to see how that’s coming along. I was on Skype with my King last night and sporting my first two strand twists…he said he liked it and didn’t understand why I decided to wait until he left to go natural. I told him that he takes up a lot of my time ;).  I don’t think he liked that explanation too much! But it is what it is!

2.) I stepped outside of my comfort zone and had my first freelance make up client. I was FREAKING OUT. Queens, I’m serious. I get compliments all the time on my make up. But it’s me. I don’t really care if others like what’s on MY face. It’s mine. But to do someone elses? I was a nervous wreck. But I played it oh so cool. She loved it! SCORE! I’m still nervous but I suppose I should go ahead a book another. I did afterall buy 2 palettes for freelance work. So that’s what I’m gonna do.

3.) I connected with some photographers to get back into my first love and hobby. Modeling. I used to model pre baby days…until my princes turned my cute as a boot tummy into some type of warzone. I love my babies but stretch marks are no joke! I stopped modeling because who wants a marked model :(. I’m gonna find somebody who does. I’m in the process of booking a shoot right now! Take that!

4.) Meal Planning to eat better and save money. I heard looking good starts from within. And anyone who knows me, knows this Queen is the Queen of fast food. Don’t hate me. I’m ashamed. But I’m changing that! I started meal planning so that I could eat healthier, feed my children better, save money, and save time! So far, so good! I’m LOVING it!

And on the other side of the world:

My husband is currently in Belarus! He was in the Ukraine first. So far he’s done youth outreach to orphanages, performed at Hip Hop International Ukraine, workshops for disabled youth, and master classes. He is changing lives overseas and they are changing his life as well. Miss him like crazy but I wouldn’t have it any other way!

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This Brown Queen