If you’ve been following the blog for some time you may have come across my Love Yourself Completely post. I’ve posted it twice here and both times I was met with such love and encouragement from Queens (here and on my social media accounts) about the message. In that post I talk about loving yourself completely and embracing everything about you. Total self acceptance. “Flaws” and all. I also talked about the things I experienced in my past that I learned to embrace and accept about myself. That transparency with you all was major for me. I’ve never really spoke out on something so personal. Writing about beauty is easy. It comes naturally to me and it’s something I’m passionate about. But what’s not so easy is being transparent and I was really happy to see such positive feedback.
Oh my goodness this weekend was everythinggg as far as the weather was concerned. It was downright beautiful outside. I was itching to get out with the kiddies first thing in the morning but Friday night was wash day and my flat twists were not dry by the time we went to head out. So turban life for me it was.
*VINTAGE NATURAL post from This Brown Queen originally posted in June 2013*
As most of you know, I’m about 2 months into my journey of transitioning to natural hair and I have my good days and bad. I think it’s safe to assume that, anyone who has been on this journey experiences moments in the beginning where you’re just not sure. Not sure about a lot things. If you’re me, your unsureness would go something like: Am I using the right products? Will this leave in work? Did I do those twists right? Does this bantu knot look nice? Do I look crazy? Why am I doing this? Whatever the case may be, you go through it. This past weekend, I was having a particularly rough time with my twist out. I’m somewhere between the point where, I “like” my natural texture, but I still don’t really know how to handle it. I’m wishing that I could just NOT have the relaxed ends anymore because they make me frustrated. I find myself trying out styles and loving the natural curl pattern at the root and just being utterly disappointed at how my relaxed ends just don’t hold up. BUT I still can’t really grasp the idea of cutting it all off. It’s a catch 22 I tell ya.
Hello loves! Today’s post is dedicated to my crown (I like the way that sounds 😉 )…also known as…my hair. For my new loves and old ones who have wondered what’s happened, let’s catch up shall we? I officially started my transition to natural hair in March. My initial plan was to transition for a year. I salute all you naturalistas that were able to big chop from the door but I was not ready for all of that! So I thought a year would give me enough time to grow my hair to what I thought would be a comfortable length. My transition was…”rocky” to say the least. You can read allll about my trials and recent triumphs here. But I was determined and I’m not the kinda girl who gives up so I was going to do this. Around the six month mark (September) I started getting antsy. I mean not only was I thoroughly over the transition, I felt myself really straddling the fence on the whole thing altogether. Either I was going to DO this or I wasn’t. After weeks of failing twist outs, major breakage, and sad scraggly ends, I made my decision. I couldn’t do this anymore. While standing in front of mirror this past Saturday night. I did it. I big chopped. I had finally returned to natural.
The first question I was asked was “So, how do you feel?” How DID I feel. I mean, I just chopped my hair off. All of it. I have maybe 3 solid inches of hair on my head. How do I feel?? Crazy. But liberated. It is gone. Those last strands of hair signified so much. Holding on to my previous images and thoughts of beauty. Holding on to the last part of security I really had when it came to my hair. This whole thing is way bigger than one simple little post. I have a million thoughts and feelings post big chop that I can’t wait to share with you all. From my thoughts on hair typing to my husbands overwhelming support of this all. I’ll be visiting those topics later and also adding more natural hair posts in general featuring my updated regimen, styles, new products, and more. For now, I’ll get it to it and let you guys get a sneak peek (and the very first introduction ever) of my baby fro. I like her <3.
I’m a natural girl now…what does that even mean? Am I part of #sheabutter Twitter? LOL you see where my priorities lie.
Peace, Love, & Blessings